If She Could Turn Back Time

It has been almost 11 months since I have blogged here! Like our friend Cher belts out “if I could turn back time…”! It is true, many of my musical quips are locked and loaded in the 80’s. I have missed reading and writing da Blog with you all. I must mention how apropos the Waiting on the Lord post from Mitch Teemely was. We are generally impatient in waiting for His good timing! A lot truly went down in the last calendar year. Two jobs ended (sorry to admit it, but grateful I am free from both!), a close friendship ended, and miscellaneous complications thereof! That is the true Reader’s Digest of the last year. The 2nd job was an all-consuming one, my boss was pretty good overall (just one of those meat grinder type of jobs that runs you over). Close to landing the next spot, so I thought I would throw down some words.

Lest someone hear complaint in the words, I am full of liberty and freedom. I didn’t say it was easy to get free, but….! I see opportunity like never before in the liberty of God. What is your time and freedom worth? Life has a balance in it, and here in our American freedom I find imbalance! Here is a song that the lyrics describe my processing. The whole song paints a little different picture, but these lyrics speak to the heart of it! The Ongoing Concept ‘places you go’.

Places you have been make you who you are
(You can make a difference now)
Places you will go make you who you will become

Places you have been make you who you are
(make you who you are, make you who you are)
Places you will go make you who you will become
(who you will become, who you will become)

I find myself continually grateful for what I go through (whether hard or easy) as it shapes my future and gives me experience to share with others when they face similar situations. It is important for all who tell the story of their own lives also. A few more lines from the song:

Get up off the ground
You can make a difference now
Get up off the ground

Another phrase that pays in my world today is “get free”! I am looking forward to the coming months of diving back into all the expressive overflows. Blessings to all readers and writers, I have missed you!

Unopened GIFTS Part 1

 

There ‘she’ is, like the crazy ex, all dressed up for the show staring back at you. Highly adorned for the celebration of the year! Glistening and lit up! Who is this highly decorated? She ain’t a she, or really even a who…but a what. What? Ok, my ‘coy’ pond is empty here. The description I am making is of your Christmas tree the day after Christmas (I know, a long journey for that right?). This particular December 26th is no ordinary picture of ‘the day after’ though. Sitting on ‘her’ skirt below are beautifully wrapped gifts that create wonder in your mind how they sit there unopened…all the wonder to wonder! Why are these gifts displayed there when all the festivities of life are already over? Was someone in the family sick (highly likely this year!!) or just unable to have Christmas? Any kid might say ‘who leaves gifts there AFTER Christmas!!??’

Would you ever leave a gift unopened around the tree all the way until after the New Year (or February for you procrastinators)? Wouldn’t you kind of at least be tempted to stow that beaut in the closet so you didn’t have to look at it? I am 200 words in and full of questions, ain’t I? All the talk of presents under the tree sent me to 8 year old thinking, which is 90% questions as you know! A parallel analogy can be made of life in general. Have you ever observed someone who seemed to leave their obvious gift unopened (their life potential)? For my thinking, that is seen regularly in sports…ask many a first round drafted athlete who had a short career!! Let’s consider this analogy like a Christmas coloring page of Santa…if you like Senor Saint Nic in a green suit, they are your crayons my friend.

Before the final buttress, consider this final observation. How would you truly feel if it were time to open gifts and they hand you one. You sit there with it in your lap the whole evening but never get to open it. One thing sure, if this is the 8 year old, forget it! That child would be like a Mexican jumping bean! A myriad of emotions would flow through you as you sit there anticipating what could possibly be inside. All the potential of possibilities lying there dormant to be undiscovered. How truly awful that would be! In my life I can think of only a few things sadder than a person sitting through life either unable to open their gift, or not allowed to.

These are the sort of threads I enjoy because it applies to everyone. It is both everyday life and spiritual life. Everyone can find something in this concept. Approaching 50 in a year and a half, there have been many times I felt like my gifts were unrealized, unwanted, or underappreciated. In my personal life that is both career/personal and spiritual. The funny thing about learning is we don’t usually know when we are ignorant (we don’t know what we don’t know!). All that said, let’s begin ‘crayoning  the Santa’.

R.W.B. Pearls 12-16-17

We have all been encouraged through the faith (church, sermons, etc) to be givers. Sacrificially, completed, as He leads we should give what He asks. But is there anything more disappointing than giving the best gift you have to someone who is bad at receiving? Be a good receiver in Christ! No one should ever doubt any prayer/encouragement they offered you by your response (or lack of one). There have been times I have had to see what God is up against! I told Him once or twice “God I love you so much, but what the blast is wrong with the people here?!!!!”

Mysterious Weakness (a weapon!)

It has been a few tick tocks since I was inspired to do a full writing. This is live, which I tend not to do with writings, though I rarely edit. I find raw writing to be pure in the flow! My inspirations have been focused on the pearls lately, but here today on 12-3-17 rockin’ up to Christmas…something fresh.

Over the past few months a set of tough circumstances have been hashing themselves out. From being laid off to dealing with a tough situation I hope to never be near again in my entire life. In my younger days I would have been quite depressed amidst all this. Today that is not an option because I tried depressed and it doesn’t work! I find this one thing therapeutic with harder issues. Admitting my absolute inability to do it in my own strength! Oh come on…we’ve all seen ‘pull self up by boot straps’ guy! Many times the reason he has to keep pulling those straps is he doesn’t learn the lesson. I will call him b.s. guy for this illustration (what? oh…boot strap guy).  You see…b.s. guy believes there is always a solution within himself if he just musters up enough of it to pull it all together.

I often see b.s. guys and heal strap gals trying to do it in just their strength. I often think to myself when I witness this: “let me know how that works out!”  Kind of like the car crash you see coming a mile away. So how are we to react and be? What I am sharing here is the value of being dependent (in my weakness) on God. I know that I am a creature created and only a piece of Him. When my piece is weakened further thru needs, lack of knowledge or understanding (often), or just part of the human condition…who else but He who put me together can restore my piece? This is the deep root of Jesus for me yall. I haven’t seen anything better or really comparable to being with Him and in Him!

We often can try and fill that void with something else, but in the end we are empty if it isn’t God filling that spot. When I had this storm of losing job and close friend(s) I had a decision to make…was I going to lay it all down at the feet of Jesus or pull on my own darn boots? You see, the sooner we give up, the sooner He gets started helping us! Hurry up and get out of the way I always say. Here is a deeper truth: we are all surrendered to something in our lives. Everyone makes a choice here. What is going to be our go to, our strength? Folks, this ain’t no superhero YouTube video with high action and kick butt music!

The key is giving up myself. Creating space for Him to dwell in me. For those of you that have read my stuff…here is a little secret…I ain’t that sharp! The only thing I lay claim to is allowing Him to speak through me using a keyboard. I am not crafty enough to create it on my own. Anything creative came from His hands not mine! I am frail and in constant need of Him (and want it no other way).

You know the sound of the swerving car out of control? Insert that sound affect here please! This seems a far cry from relative, but I sense it true. There is a current ongoing societal issue playing out right now in the news that is an example of b.s. guy controlling his whole darn world no matter who it hurts. These may be extreme examples I do understand, but look at how controlling everything ended for Matt Lauer, Bill O’Reilly, Charlie Rose, and all the hosts of others in news, politics, and entertainment. Look what kind of ugliness takes over when you alone are in control. I bet those guys thought they trusted themselves at one point too. Now, no one trusts them!

This is why I feel strong in my weakness, because it is surrendered to Him fully. I don’t have to worry whether I can fix something because He goes to work on it for me. Many people told me about this job and that job when I was looking around at the landscape. It would have been easy to settle on a job of equal standing, a lateral move. ‘Do a job you may not even enjoy if the benefits are good’ a lot of people will say. I am comfortable hearing God’s voice at this point to know that wasn’t the right choice. I waited, looked, and worked doing some side jobs. I was tempted to be be discouraged or settle. I made up my mind that He has something better than just ok…I heard His voice say to ‘wait a little longer, I have it covered.’ Long story short He brought me to a man that needed a lot of my experiences before in a job as a project manager type (instead of physical labor and hands on). From the ashes a much better paying job that is not physical labor!

The point of that is…no amount of ‘stick to of itism’ would have brought me here. Only my weaknesses surrendered: when my chiropractor bill was a good portion of my paycheck…when there seemed no way out and no way up. My weaknesses and burdens I have to daily give to Him to take care of, it is the only thing that keeps my heart and spirit from becoming heavily loaded.

R.W.B. Pearls 12-2-17 (#3)

 

Everybody here has a passion. We cannot all fully pursue each other’s passions except when the Holy Spirit leads you to. WE MUST know (or learn) who we are in a vacuum (just you and He in the prayer closet peeps!). Meetings are just overflow!!! Do you remember when David tried to wear Saul’s armor? How did that work out? Had to scrap that metal!!! The Word is clear that we are all different functions in the Body…Hand is not foot, foot is not hand. The Body is strong when we all are affirmed at our function in it. I have personally witnessed it too many times…people who don’t totally know who they are in Him try to be a hand or foot because the strong leader is that…8 feet causes stumbling.

R.W.B. Pearls 12-1-17 (#2)

When life gets hard I try to remember that God has His plan and we don’t need to worry how hard life is, because He knows what He’s doing. He has a plan for us and He has it all figured out! No matter how hard, we can believe in Him-God has a plan, knows what we’re doing and what He will do for us.

From a 10 year old!! (Daddy is proud!)